Monday, February 28, 2022

EVEN THE MIGHTY FALL


On a cold autumn day, I walked alone along the country road. The air, the distance, and the peace I absorbed, allowing myself to take advantage of being me. I had nothing to do for moments but walk out in the country air. I came across a hawk; lying alongside the road with an apparently broken neck. I choked back my disbelief. I did not expect to react as I did. My simple life had come face to face with the mighty, and the mighty had fallen. In disbelief, I came face to face with the parallels in my life and all the space that surrounded me. This was reality, the hard stuff. Even the mighty fall, no power can take on fate and situation. It is what it is, and this is where it ends up. He lay there dead. He lay there weak He lay there alone The universe he came from and the universe he flew over did not matter anymore. It made no difference how he reigned or how he stood proud. In the end, he was like any other…dead and gone. A cold chill flowed like an ocean through my entire body. So this was it, the true essence of life. Nothing matters in the end; we meet at the crossroads on even ground with the same fate. We all meet up somewhere. It wasn’t just death that threw me into a spin; it was standing there realizing “the mighty fall” Once strong and happy, I can end up weak and scared. Once on top, it can end up on the bottom. It is not as if I did not know this of my surroundings and world situations. It is not as I was unaware of the homeless, poverty-stricken, the ill, and the disasters that come. Being faced with a small part of the fallen mighty takes you to bounds and flowing feelings of natural process, we call life, like the hawk, whether it be death, poverty, addiction, sorrow, and pain, the mighty fall, some slowly and some quickly. We all fall. Gathering my thoughts, I continued to walk. Finally, I looked up, and there was a hawk in all its glory, beautiful and powerful. I wished him well.

Monday, February 21, 2022

IN ALL MY DAYS


In all my days, I want to have peace.
In all my days, I want to have joy.
In all my days, I want to have honesty.
In all my days, I want to have faith.
In all my days, I want to have power.
In all my days, I want to have me.

Monday, February 14, 2022

RECOLLECTIONS


Recollection of times past. When you find a piece of the puzzle, you must look into the past. I always had a conflict about how people perceived me and what kind of person they thought I was. With the overwhelming intrusion of thoughts, I always worried about what others thought about me. During high school, I was sure that some saw me as stuck up, a bitch, and maybe snobby, while others saw me as plain and didn't notice me. No matter what I thought others were thinking of me, it was rarely, if ever, positive. The more these thoughts intruded on my mind, the more I would try to fade into the background.
Avoidance would be a defense. Sometimes I did speak or act, even enjoy myself and try to be expected; I would be tortured when alone. Examining everything I had said and done in front of people. As simple as just hanging with my friends, I judged, interrogated, and feared every moment I had made within the day,
Consumed with the never-ending trial I had put myself on, I would plan to try to be more invisible the next day. Planning to say even less sounded safer to spare me the beating in my mind.
High school also brought the self-image of being plain and homely. I felt lucky if a boy paid attention to me, but I also didn't handle it well.
My self-image is tainted by always disliking my looks and wanting to be better-looking or turn heads. Don't know exactly why. I have been complimented on how I look and sought compliments before; it all seemed to ensure the thoughts I had already. Ideas that I was a very blah-looking person and could blend into a wall if needed.

Monday, February 7, 2022

IN TIME


I take you as far as I will

Catch you when you fall

Teach when I can

Understand in all time

You cry with a chance.

Stand tall with strength.

Need but don't hurry

Understand in all time

We allow for more

Step only forward

Carry only the burden

Understand in all time

My Lips

My lips are wet, tasting the honey of passion. Moist and tender to touch, sensuous prowling for desire. Enter the suggestions I have see...