My Soul Tokens

On a cold autumn day, I walked alone along the country road. The air, the distance, and the peace I absorbed, allowing myself to take advantage of being me. I had nothing to do for moments but walk out in the country air. I came across a hawk; lying alongside the road with an apparently broken neck. I choked back my disbelief. I did not expect to react as I did. My simple life had come face to face with the mighty, and the mighty had fallen. In disbelief, I came face to face with the parallels in my life and all the space that surrounded me. This was reality, the hard stuff. Even the mighty fall, no power can take on fate and situation. It is what it is, and this is where it ends up. He lay there dead. He lay there weak He lay there alone The universe he came from and the universe he flew over did not matter anymore. It made no difference how he reigned or how he stood proud. In the end, he was like any other…dead and gone. A cold chill flowed like an ocean through my entire body. So

In all my days, I want to have peace. In all my days, I want to have joy. In all my days, I want to have honesty. In all my days, I want to have faith. In all my days, I want to have power. In all my days, I want to have me.

Recollection of times past. When you find a piece of the puzzle, you must look into the past. I always had a conflict about how people perceived me and what kind of person they thought I was. With the overwhelming intrusion of thoughts, I always worried about what others thought about me. During high school, I was sure that some saw me as stuck up, a bitch, and maybe snobby, while others saw me as plain and didn't notice me. No matter what I thought others were thinking of me, it was rarely, if ever, positive. The more these thoughts intruded on my mind, the more I would try to fade into the background. Avoidance would be a defense. Sometimes I did speak or act, even enjoy myself and try to be expected; I would be tortured when alone. Examining everything I had said and done in front of people. As simple as just hanging with my friends, I judged, interrogated, and feared every moment I had made within the day, Consumed with the never-ending trial I had put myself on, I would plan

I take you as far as I will Catch you when you fall Teach when I can Understand in all time You cry with a chance. Stand tall with strength. Need but don't hurry Understand in all time We allow for more Step only forward Carry only the burden Understand in all time