Please

 

My voice is frozen in time, going in reverse.

The door is open, but I cannot see it.

This heaviness within my mind spins me.

Please

My sight is blurred. going inward.

The ground feels uneven and untrustworthy

This thickness within my thoughts stalls me.

Please

My hearing is clouded, filtered from the truth.

The path is long and winding around doubt.

The silence cries in uncomprehension.

Please

Questions for the Moon

Why now is my mind full of wonder? How does it come to be?

Where are my settings to fix? How do I understand? 

Am I just to stand in faith with no questions answered? 

It feels heavy today. the air surrounds with swirling intrigue.

Why now do I rest easy in resolving myself?; feeling a sense of me.

Why now, Moon? Why am I to follow in trusting this completely?

How does it come to be that I have no doubt in something so uncertain?

Blindly, I seek answers but utterly believe in the crazy unbelievable.

What now. Moon?

My Soul Token

 

Please give me the strength to understand and be internally at peace with my soul.

Bring me a power that allows me to shine and sparkle as I can.

Allow me faith beyond acknowledgment where I can rest my spirit.

Be my Soul Token

A New Definition of Happiness

A question of happiness crossed my mind.

The choice of smiling or crying, yelling or laughing

A true fork in the path within my mind

Happiness is easier when the clouds are gone.

Strive closer to a definition of happiness.

Different with age and time

Released of obligated happiness

Peaceful laughter comes with ease.

Don't think to hard

I have had my share of questions and have sought out answers but did not find what I was looking for. I always heard things I didn't want to hear, ignoring what I already knew. I have always had peace within me, a sense of pure nothing that is stronger than something. If you take everything away, I mean everything in your life and all that is in your mind and stand with that nothing in silence, all the answers are right there. No voices in your head, no questions on top of questions, no emotion or ego.

Sit quietly and wait for your next thought; really listen to what your mind is really about; don't answer it, but don't ignore it.....anything?

Imagine if you just got it, all of it, you all of sudden just knew. Your biggest wow is yet to come.

I Will Be In OZ!

Ever have one of those days where you wish that damn tornado would come and take you to OZ!

I would even wear those tacky red ruby slippers if I had to.

I can’t sing, but there has to be a recording somewhere I can lip-sync, too.

I would follow the yellow brick road, and if the crazy lion, straw man, and tin man want to come, they better keep their distance. I have enough crazy shit in my life and don’t need their problems.

The wicked witch would totally meet her match, and I am not afraid of flying monkeys, I have 3 kids, so try dealing with them for a week.

So bring it on!

When entering the emerald city, that large castle thing with all the strange people about-- somewhat like a mall in the city—I will not be looking for the green head that has the wisdom, or the little man behind the curtain. I will look for the spa, deli, and better-looking shoes.

When I am finished and had my fill of strange but far away-from-reality break from my life, I will return on a broomstick, chanting.

“I am ready to come home.”

Beginning or End?

On top of the hill, where the entire downtown core can be seen, she looks down to the small town where she grew up and twists the cap off the water bottle. Placing the yellow pills in her mouth, she drinks to flush them into her body. Deciding to stand motionless, to make that dramatic fall to the ground while her life drifts away, she stares into the evening sky. Falling into darkness, her body goes limp, never feeling the ground.

Is it the beginning or end?