I WILL DIE HERE

The walls tell me lies; I am unsure if I exist outside them anymore. Like a caged animal, I sit here inside myself, just wondering.

When I am done wondering, I start over again. The endless loop of misery, keeps me bound.

If it does not end soon, I will die here.

The cloud is heavy; it hurts; I can feel the pain physically and mentally; you don't have to believe me; I know what I think.

I see the people who pass, a blur of help, a taste of hope. It will take more than a mighty sword to save me; I will die here.

I am not sure what I am so sad about; I forget my personality and live in the shadow of my former self. How will I get out of here?

If I don't get out of here, I will die here.

A VISIT

The devil made a visit the other day; he sat down beside me. With a coldness, I gained strength from all I am. Soaring thoughts of damnation, turmoil, and darkness faded quickly. All the light surrounded in warmth, power, and peace.

Faith towers over the tug of evil, and laughter prevails.

He sat with a stare, a non-presence, a blank now of available power. One-on-one and nowhere to go, understood of protection. This is the end of it; no weakness here.

I AM GOING TO BUT I SHOULDN'T

I am up for it, I really want it, I have prepared for it

Only doing what I need to do

Only wanting to get over this hump

I want to look amazing

I want to cry, fall into a hole

I want to be confident

I want to be healthy and uncontrollable

If good or bad, life spins us around.

There is no winning Just being

WHO I AM

This is who I am

Standing here, facing the day.

No mask, no cape, no super powers

This is who I am

Taking my life forward

No trials, no expectations, no plans

This is who I am

Giving it all I got

No scheme, no deception, no regret

This is just who I am